New Land Speed Record

i went to Smilow when the lab opened at 7 am to get my pre-treatment blood work and then went to work. 

I had a 12:30 appointment so I left my office around 12:15, 5 minute walk to my parking garage,  then drive and park at Smilow and check in on the 7th floor. The nurse took me in right away – weight, vitals and the usual questions (pain, neuropathy, bowels, etc. ). She had ordered the chemo when she saw my test results come through. I took the dexamethasone. She got a co-worker to “read” (safety double check to make sure the right person getting the right medication ) then the shot in the belly and I was out of there and back in my office in less than an hour!

I had Book Club in Redding tonight. Not the best planning on my part. I was tired. Couldn’t have any wine. Got leg cramps driving to and from. BUT it was really good to see everyone who made it and catch up. (We even talked about some books!)

Having trouble sleeping tonight, even with my “aids”. My legs are achy and I’m quite nauseous. 

But, only 6 more days this cycle and then a week off. 

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Heather

I never thought I’d be writing a blog, and certainly not one that is all about me, and yet, here I am. For me life has always been interesting, not mundane, not always exciting per se, but hardly ever the norm. When I say “It’s always something…” I don’t hear it as my life is a mess, it;s always something. It’s more of life is challenging and evolving and messy and inspiring and wondrous, it’s always something. I grew up in suburbia, buy my grandfather was the head of the Communist Party in the U.S. I was raised keeping that a secret, so that was something. I am tall, always have been, really tall (6’1″), I was taller than every human being in my elementary school when I was in 6th grade, that is still something. My parents divorced in my teens. I got a full basketball scholarship to Duke University. I married my high school basketball coach, 18 years my senior. I raised a stepson. I had two amazing kids of my own. We had a multicultural household, secular christian (I guess that’s what I would call it, you know Santa and the Easter Bunny) and Judaism, I used to say if it was a holiday – we celebrated it! We were uber involved in our community, mostly through youth athletics, coaching, managing and spectating. Our kids grew up, I started a photography business on the side (I hope to share some photos here) and we planned to travel a bit together, went to Portugal for our 25th anniversary and then my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 prostate cancer, initially they gave him 5 years, but he only survived for a little over two. I was going to say lived, but really, it was more like surviving. That, indeed, was something. I became a widow at 49. It was the worst thing that ever happened to me. But, then it was something in another way. I relearned who I was. You don’t realize how much of you becomes a combination of you and another person in a relationship. And not in a bad way, it is essential, and you don’t lose yourself, you just evolve. And I found myself suddenly alone, and learning about myself and who I had become over the years, what was just me, and what was part of who we were together. Which in retrospect, was probably hardest on those around me who had gotten used to the old me, or never even knew the original me. A year later I found love again. Sold my home of 31 years and moved closer to work. I became more fit, ate more healthfully and was amazed that I could be happy, truly happy, in the wake, no not wake, but the shadow of such profound grief. And that is truly something, something amazing and unexpected. And then, through some routine blood work in April 2014, and a visit to a hematologist and bone marrow biopsy in May, I was diagnosed with multiple myeloma. And so, yes, for me right now it’s multiple myeloma, but that is not all, there are still highs and joys, and the mundane and the rest, but something like cancer does cast a pretty long shadow.

2 thoughts on “New Land Speed Record”

  1. Making the book club meeting is NEVER a bad decision!! I’m glad you were there. Our book club is unique and special! Or — maybe it’s just like all the other book clubs. Maybe they’re no better than us, and they don’t read sh*t! : ) I’m proud to be a member of the So-Called Book Club. And I am proud to be a friend of its founder and sometime, sporadic book reader. I like ‘Tell the Wolves I’m Home” so far. A lot.

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